Kiwi Crate

I liked the idea, in theory, but was skeptical about how it would be received by my craft-loathing child. My friend really wanted us to try it, though, so bought the girls a three month subscription for Christmas/ birthdays. This month's box crate revolved around story telling.
Aside from a meltdown about accidentally ripping the paper when she was trying to cut something out, Laura has seemed to really enjoy it so far. We have practiced fine motor with cutting and colouring, we have learned about stage set up, we have been creative drawing a stage scene, we have created a marionette type puppet, and learned some new vocabulary words, too! (punching something out of paper does not mean to punch something out like you would a person!)

The End of (Another) Era

We had originally wanted to keep Rachel in Parent and Tot swimming classes for at least one more session, but Laura was ready to move up to the Swimmer series classes, and the Swimmer One level started at 9:00. Rachel's Parent and Tot lesson didn't start until 10:00, which wasn't really a problem, as we could both be in the pool with them the whole time, but Rachel has really mastered everything in Parent and Tot, and the only thing holding her back from graduating to parentless Preschool swimming lessons was her comfort level without us. The problem was that if we held her back from the Preschool set, she would perpetually be behind Laura's lesson times (eg. Laura would be in Swimmer Two at 9:30 when Rachel started Preschool One at 9:00, Laura would be in Swimmer Three at 10:00 when Rachel started Preschool Two at 9:30, etc), so we decided on the fly today to see if she could be in the Preschool One class at 9:00 this morning, and they had room for her! It is the same teacher who has taught her Parent and Tot class for the last year or so, so she was already comfortable(ish) with her, and with only a small amount of coaxing she enjoyed her lesson with out in the water! Josh and I enjoyed a relaxing half hour pool side to just chat with each other while the kids had their lessons.
So although it was a somewhat abrupt end to a fantastic era of Saturday morning family pool time, I think it will be for the best in the long run. And although Josh and I now have to pay to swim because we are not part of Rachel's lesson anymore, we can make a point to enjoy the mornings we do.

A Star is Born

     We got the call this morning that Laura has officially been cast in the Wizard of Oz community theatre production after her audition last Sunday! She was the youngest one to audition and be cast. To say I am excited and proud would be an understatement. I've been nearly jumping around the house.

     The director said she was particularly impressed that Laura has been taking vocal lessons for nine months already, and that it shows dedication and focus. She was also convinced that Laura was stage ready because, during her audition, she successfully improvised a skit with another child. Laura will be playing a munchkin, with her own special part as one of three members of the Lullaby League which will feature a dance and a verse sung in trio. She has also been cast as a poppy, in a later scene of the show. 

     I think this kind of thing is right up Laura's alley, and this is a perfect introductory show for her.
Come and see her on stage April 23 - 26!! :D

Weaned

    As of the new year, I am officially done breastfeeding. It's kind of bittersweet, but I'm mostly okay with it, I think.

     I started this post a long time ago, over a year ago, as I have anticipated Rachel weaning for a long time. Our breastfeeding relationship has been rocky. I had a beautiful, textbook breastfeeding relationship with Laura: comfort, bonding, mutually agreed upon weaning, and it was just so different the second time around with Rachel. From the time she was born, she was always a good but quick nurser, and it didn't seem particularly comforting to her. I had been so happily anticipating the amazing bond it creates, but I perceived that she was really just mostly in it for the nutritional aspect. And when I got pregnant when she was five months old, and my supply dropped, our real struggles began. At first, she was fussy because she was going hungry. I would flip out on anyone who dared interrupt us, including my two year old. Once we realized the problem, we had to start supplementing. I remember crying at the grocery store buying our first can of formula. I felt so guilty and like such a failure. And then when we tried to give her a bottle, we struggled more because she didn't want to take it. So we both sat there many nights, both crying, because of all this. Eventually we started dipping the bottle nipple in maple syrup so she would accept it. And thus began the downward spiral. I couldn't take anything to boost my supply because I was pregnant, and the more bottles she drank, the more negative feedback my body received about how much milk to make. After I lost that pregnancy, my supply was really tanked. I started taking herbs and nursing tea to help boost it. For a while, we were doing fairly well - less than one bottle a day. But because Rachel had realized that bottles were less work for her, she wasn't keen to give them up entirely. I beat myself up every time she wanted one. Whenever we would have a bad day or she would nurse less frequently than normal, I would be upset. I wanted to nurse her until at least two years old because I felt that was only fair, since that was when her sister self-weaned. But it was becoming very difficult to keep it up, physically, and emotionally.  We struggled a lot, because I didn't feel like she liked or wanted it, really. She rarely asked for it, though when she did, I was over the moon. It was all very emotionally draining and psychologically unhealthy. But there were things that I still adored about breastfeeding: I was fascinated to watch my infant stay healthy when other family members would come down ill, I loved her playing games with my face, pointing to eyes, ears, nose, pushing my face to other side to see other ear, etc. And I loved how easy it was. Warm milk, ready on tap whenever you needed it (which, granted, was not quite as easy once we were battling supply issues). So you can see the bittersweet aspect.

     Then, before she had fully weaned, I randomly stumbled across an article that had a story very similar to ours. However, the mother had a different spin on it: 

            Although I was sad that he weaned, I chose to focus on the positive. We had beaten the odds, 

           and when he needed breastmilk the most (while in the NICU and during the first winter), he had 

           it! We had a really good, loving nursing relationship, and it ended on a positive note. I missed

           nursing him, but I celebrated nine hard-won months of breastfeeding.

      And it was then that I realized that I really should be celebrating the achievement we made by making it as far as we did after struggling so much. When Rachel turned two, I stopped taking supplements (that was a year and five months, if you're keeping track!) because I had made it to my goal with her. I was shocked, really, that we had made it that far, considering where we had come from. She was supplemented from the time she was about six months old, but still met the criteria for the breastfed growth chart. At around 14 months (I think?), we switched from formula to a coconut/ almond milk mixture because she could not tolerate cow's milk, and she still drinks that now. I had secretly revised my goal to nursing for 30 months, because I felt like I wanted her to have the extra six months of breast milk that she had partially missed out on while she was being supplemented with formula, and lo and behold, we made it to that goal, too! She stopped nursing about a month ago, so between 30 and 31 months. I am pleased she held on so long, especially considering that she was solely in charge of maintaining supply without lactation supplements for the past six months, and I feel like we are ready to be done. Mutually. I'm sure I will miss it, but I definitely won't have regrets of not trying harder. <3




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Laura-isms III

They are getting fewer and further between :( but here is what I've compiled from the last while

Winter 2014

• "Oranges are orange, just like bees' bums are yellow"
•  Playing pretend train (from Dumbo), Laura is mistakenly saying, "All D'aboard!" So, I try to correct her, but she keeps mispronouncing it. She then says, "I'm just glitching."
• Found a panty liner, took the backing off it, said, "Man, this is a sticky phone!"

Spring 2014

• Mom! When Daddy is spinning on my chair and I have to go poop, the poop opens up my bum and says, "Yaaaahhhhoooooo!!"
•  Earlier, while playing, Laura had banged her face (just under her nose) on her bed. At bedtime, we were 'talking guys' with Pooh Bear, and Laura was recounting her day to him, "... and I banged my chin on the bed!" I interjected, "That's your lip." Laura: "Well, I haven't worked out all the details, myself."
• while playing with sidewalk paint on the driveway, I say, "I painted a heart. What did you paint?" Laura says, "A dragon's heart. And see that crack right there? That means it's broken."
• While at Disney World (and a little sleep-deprived!), the alarm went off at 6:45am. Laura says, "DAMMIT!", rolls over and goes back to sleep.

Fall 2014

• "What the heaven is she doing?!"
• In the bathroom, alone, I hear Laura say, "And soap is called hand toothpaste!"

Christmas Spirit Elf

I have ranted before about my dislike for Santa Claus, and I have an even stronger dislike for the traditional Elf on the Shelf notion, yet I have still been captivated by all of the fun and magic he brings. So last year when I saw the idea of the Kindness Elves, I knew that was something I could get on board with, while not having to follow the traditional "be good or else" theme. After searching on Pinterest for more ideas/ ideas that would work for us, I decided our elf would be a "Christmas Spirit" Elf. He would facilitate the spirit of giving and gratitude and also some Christmas activities like building a gingerbread house and decorating the tree. I also wanted our own elf (not an Elf on the Shelf doll), so I made us a Waldorf-style elf to fill the part. He introduced himself this morning and the girls decided to name him Buddy. I will keep this post updated with the Christmas spirity things Buddy gets up to. :)


Monday, December 1
We set the Christmas tree up last night and this morning the girls came down to find it all lit up but undecorated, with Buddy sitting on one of the branches. His message read:

Hi Laura and Rachel!

I am your Christmas Spirit Elf

and I will be visiting you for advent.

Each day we will do an activity

to foster Christmas Spirit. 

Today we will decorate the tree!

I am looking forward to 

spending advent with you!

P.S. Will you please give me a name?

Thank you!

Tuesday, December 2
Today Buddy made a very big mess of the playroom, getting out every single one of the girls' toys. It was a good visual for them to see just how much stuff they have! His message read:

Good morning Laura and Rachel!

In the Spirit of Christmas

I have brought you a gift!

But wow!

You sure have a lot of things already!

Maybe you should sort through them today

and find some to give to some other kids.

Love, Buddy

Wednesday, December 3
When we were discussing potential 'elf activities' Josh had suggested we teach the girls about other customs around the holidays. I took out a stack of books from the library for us to look at today so the girls (and I!) would be cognizant about things like solstice rituals, Kwanzaa, Hanukkah, etc. This was the first morning they seemed excited about the elf and giggled at his set up. <3

Hello Laura and Rachel

I have some books here 

to teach us about Christmas customs 

and ways people celebrate 

the holidays around the world. 

I hope you enjoy them! 

Love, Buddy

I had a really nice afternoon with Laura spending time looking through the books and learning about a lot of neat different customs. Definitely something I would like to explore further in future years. :)

Thursday, December 4

Dear Laura and Rachel,
Today would be a really great day

to send Santa a letter about yourself

and your Christmas wishlist!

Love, Buddy

Laura addressing her letter to Santa :)

Friday, December 5
The girls found Buddy set up with popcorn and hot chocolate watching The Polar Express this morning. He had "tickets" (I printed from here, Thanks Pinterest) for them for their movie night. (Laura recognized them in the movie later on - "Hey! Those were like our tickets from this morning!)

Laura and Rachel,

Here are your tickets

to the Holiday Family Movie Night

at Rachel's school for tonight.

Maybe you can help Mom

make some treats to bring along?

Love, Buddy

We ended up making the Santa fruit pops in this post and lemon meringue cupcakes to bring along.
Also, Laura received her letter back from Santa today (already!) and she was so excited! Adorable.


Saturday, December 6
In keeping with yesterday's theme, we wanted to take the girls for a special treat: a train ride on the Santa Claus Express with their friend Avery, who loves trains.

Good morning Laura and Rachel!
Today is a special day 

because we are going for a train ride

on the Santa Claus Express!

I hope you enjoy your 

special Christmas treat!

Love, Buddy

Sunday, December 7

Dear Laura and Rachel

At Christmastime it is nice 

to think about others

and what you can do to make 

Christmas special for them.

Today we are going to take

the dogs for a fun day out

because they like to have fun

and play games too!

Merry Christmas Chester and Willow!

Love, Buddy

One of the images we received from the Canine Christmas fundraiser we attended <3

Monday, December 8

 Hi Laura and Rachel

Christmas time is a time to give,

a time for generosity.

Today we are going to share

some food with people

who don't always have money

to buy it.

Love, Buddy

Tuesday, December 9

Laura and Rachel,

Let's make some cookies

for the neighbours today

and spread some Christmas cheer!

Love, Buddy

white chocolate and cherry shortbread

Wednesday, December 10

Hello Laura and Rachel,

Wasn't it great giving cookies

to the neighbours yesterday?

I love doing things for others!

Today let's show some love 

to the birds and squirrels

and make some seed cookies for them!

Love, Buddy

Thursday, December 11

Hi Laura and Rachel

Aren't candy canes great? 

I think they are great,

so great that I think we 

should share them with

a whole bunch of people today!

Candy canes for everyone!

Love, Buddy

Friday, December 12
   Unfortunately yesterday was a ridiculous blizzard and we couldn't even leave the house. So we didn't get a chance to hand out candy canes or to hang out the bird seed cookies we had made on Wednesday. Buddy did not approve:

Dear Laura and Rachel

I am on strike today

because you have some 

catching up to do with

your Christmas Spirit activities!

Please take the birds their 

cookies, and don't forget to

share those candy canes!

Love, Buddy

The girls shared candy canes with all the people in line when we went to the post office, and then with the candy
canes we had left, Laura suggested we take them to the police officers. We also hung a few on people's car doors.
It was really fun to watch people's reactions and I think we'll definitely keep this activity for future years.

Saturday, December 13

Good Morning Laura and Rachel

A little birdy told me that today

is Laura's Christmas Recital!

I stayed up all night practicing the songs

in hopes that I can sing them 

as well as Laura does!

May I come watch your performance?

Love, Buddy

Laura spreading Christmas cheer: being a ham at her concert

Sunday, December 14

Dear Laura and Rachel

You did a great job of spreading

Christmas cheer yesterday at the concert!

And today there will be even more 

fun to be had at the Christmas party

you're going to!

Love, Buddy

P.S. Do you like my party hat?

Monday, December 15

Hi Laura and Rachel

Do you have Christmas presents

for everyone yet? No?

How about we make some today!

Love, Buddy

Baking soda clay ornaments

Doggies got in on it, too! <3

Tuesday, December 16

Dear Laura and Rachel,

I am so proud of you two

and how much Christmas cheer

you have been spreading to everyone.

Keep up the good work!

Today you could spread some cheer

at home by helping out Mom & Dad!

Love, Buddy

Wednesday, December 17

Laura and Rachel

Your Christmas Spirit 

seemed low yesterday.

Today we should go see

Santa to cheer you two up!

Love, Buddy

Thursday, December 18

Good morning Laura and Rachel,

I hear that Rachel's Christmas concert

at nursery school is today.

Make sure to smile lots 

and spread your Christmas cheer!

Love, Buddy

Friday, December 19

Dear Laura and Rachel,

Tonight, after dark, 

let's go for a drive 

and look at all the beautiful 

Christmas lights around town!

Love, Buddy

Saturday, December 20

Dear Laura and Rachel

Today is your last swimming lesson of the year!

Since you love them so much,

it would be nice to show your teacher your appreciation 

- perhaps bring her some Christmas cookies?

Love, Buddy

(The best part is that their swimming teacher is named Ariel) :)

Sunday, December 21

Hey Laura and Rachel

Did you know that, where we live, 

today is the shortest day of the year?

It's called the Winter Solstice

and we are going to celebrate 

the sunnier days to come!

Love, Buddy

gingerbread cookie making at our Solstice get-together

Monday, December 22

Laura and Rachel

Let's build a gingerbread house today!

Love, Buddy

Tuesday, December 23

Hi Laura and Rachel

Look at all this CANDY!

I LOVE IT!

You should finish up

your gingerbread house today

so I can live there and eat it!

And maybe you could 

decorate a gingerbread man

for the mailman.
Love, Buddy

No matter how hard I try, the gingerbread house always ends up being a two day project.
This is our "witch's cottage" from Hansel and Gretel, as per Laura's request. :)

Wednesday, December 24

Laura and Rachel

Tomorrow is Christmas, 

it's practically here!

And that means that

today is the last day of advent,

and I, in my cap, 

will be laying down

for a long winter's nap. 

I've left you some new jammies 

for you to remember me by.

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

Love, Buddy

An Interview With the Girls

As per the recommendation of the hilarious Amber Dusick of Parenting, Illustrated With Crappy Pictures, I started trying to do this interview with Laura at age three. She only answered a few of the questions because she wasn't really into it at the time. Then the draft of the post got buried. I found it when she was 4.5 and asked her the questions again and got more responses. <3

An Interview With Laura

• What makes you happiest?
  age 3: When I go to gymnastics. (?!?!) Oh, and when I play in the pool. I am happy when I play in the pool.
  
  age 4.5: playing sneaky squirrel

          ETA age 5.5: cuddling with you at night

• What do you want to be when you grow up?age 4.5: For Halloween?
  (No, for a job.)
  Cooking food for everybody in my whole family *big smile*

          ETA age 5.5: A grown-up. A mommy.

• What are you afraid of?age 4.5: Dragons. Dragons and bears. And really big dogs. (What about willow?) I mean dogs THIS big *spreads arms as wide as she can*
  
  ETA age 5.5: Monsters
  

• What makes you laugh?
  age 3: When Chester makes noise. Daddy's noise. (What noise?) balfneokefasdjhliwe.
  
  age 4.5: when I sit on Elmo and he says, "Elmo is SO happy to see you!"
  
  ETA age 5.5: When Daddy makes funny faces.
  

• What is the hardest thing to do?age 4.5: try to catch slippery soap.
  
  ETA age 5.5: climbing up a rope.
  

• What are you good at?age 4.5: I'm good at playing sneaky squirrel.
  (Anything else?)
  Good at being brave when I'm going down scary slides.
  
  ETA age 5.5: playing with my little sister and playing mario kart. I have two talents: playing with my sister and playing Mario Kart. That's my two talents.
  

• What makes you mad?age 4.5: When you don't play something fun with me. Do you know what makes me the maddest what you do? When you won't take me to fun places. All the time. But sometimes you drive me to swimming lessons, Story Book Park, Disamy World - three stuff I like. 
  
  ETA age 5.5: I don't know. Um, when Rachel has my things.
  

• What does love mean?age 4.5: a heart. 
  
  ETA age 5.5: love people that you like. And I love you.

and here are Rachel's answers:

• What makes you happiest?
  age 2.5: When I go on rollercoasters myself!
  
  ETA age 3: Rowing down the stream.
  

• What do you want to be when you grow up?age 2.5: super big!
  
  ETA age 3: Be a big girl.
  

• What are you afraid of?age 2.5: Monsters, when they see me I go "ahhhh!" And ghostes
  ETA age 3: Ernies. Ernies are monsters too.
  

• What makes you laugh?
  age 2.5: [does not understand question]
  
  ETA age 3: Daddy makes really funny faces like this. *makes face* I like that.
  

• What is the hardest thing to do?ETA age 3: breaking cheese

• What are you good at?
  ETA age 3: Doing a monster
  

• What makes you mad?age 2.5: Bears.
  
  ETA age 3: A monster makes me mad
  

• What does love mean?age 2.5: *sings* love love!
  
  ETA age 3: I love bunnies I mean