I have had these three frames for almost 7 years, always with the intention of filling them each with a collage of photos of the three babies I had always dreamed about. Laura's and Rachel's are happily filled in with photos from their respective first years, and are displayed proudly in our living room... but the last one remains empty.
The past few days I have been really struggling with the whole surrogacy issue. My dream of having three children refuses to be extinguished, and comes rushing back to the forefront when news like the new liberal budget includes funding a round of IVF for all infertile couples is revealed. I had even had a realistic offer from someone to carry for us, so of course I couldn't help but get my hopes up.
Turns out that surrogate won't work out for us, and even more painful, Josh is not sure about the whole idea still. It is becoming a sore spot for us. I feel unsupported in achieving my dreams, and he feels overwhelmed. It's hard to find a compromise or middle ground.
Turns out that surrogate won't work out for us, and even more painful, Josh is not sure about the whole idea still. It is becoming a sore spot for us. I feel unsupported in achieving my dreams, and he feels overwhelmed. It's hard to find a compromise or middle ground.
